Suicide
Suicide is a taboo subject, just like other taboo subjects most of us must have thought about it at least once in our lifetimes; for different reasons. Reasons like:
1. I am not good enough for anyone, not for my girlfriend, my boyfriend, not for my parents, not good enough to exist.
2. My parents fight all the time because of me. If I wasn’t born, this wouldn’t be happening. I wish its over soon.
3. I am bullied, abused and hated in school because I am a looser.
4. I am suffering from this incurable disorder that hinders me to do what I want to, to be who I want to and it will take me away much sooner than others. Why should I live through this, what did I do to deserve this? I can make this suffering go away If I end my life sooner.
All the reasons seem so true at the time that we don’t realize its all because of the depression and our miserable condition.
The circumstances are so important, we don’t even see “why” something had happened. Usually we are driven to such an extent of “desperately-looking-for-a-solution” that in an intense state of reduced logical reasoning we pick the easiest solution. To End it.
When you do think about it reasonably for a moment, there is a realization; what would happen to all the people who actually love you? They would be devastated! But didn’t you originally think no one loved you? This is the reason why some end up killing themselves and some get over it. It is at that point where you have to get out of the loop.
In this world, there will ALWAYS be someone who will love you and ALWAYS someone who will hate you for who you are. This does not mean no one does! This does not mean if two or three have treated you very badly that no one will ever understand. You would have had talked to a million people to know if everyone hates you (maybe more if you have to be sure)!
So get this, we might feel there is nothing more to live for, but life changes, situations change, it may take time or seem like nothing is going anywhere. But they will. Get professional help if you can, its like talking to someone to understand yourself better.
I found this piece on ezinearticles.com by Christina Sponias, here is an extract:
Here are the basic steps that lead someone to come to the point of committing suicide:
1. First of all they suffer in their lives as victims of other people’s cruelty.
2. Then the anti-conscience, their wild and evil, primitive conscience, starts sending them many absurd ideas and feelings, taking advantage of their revolt because they were injured by others.
3. As they follow the absurd suggestions of the anti-conscience they make many mistakes in life, and in the end they see themselves imprisoned in a labyrinth of problems that have no solution.
4. The anti-conscience starts then sending them many suicidal thoughts, besides depression and fear.
5. They completely lose their human conscience, which was destroyed by the absurdity that invaded it. They cannot control their behavior anymore, which means that their primitive side dominates them completely, and they are not responsible for their actions. This is when they commit suicide, without caring about anyone or anything.
If you don’t have the courage to commit suicide, this is a very good sign. This means that your human conscience is still alive, and you still have human feelings. You can understand what your suicidal attempt would mean to everyone…
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